D-I-V-O-R-C-E

is ugly. I hate it. I am trying very hard to believe that everything happens for a reason. I am trying very hard not to be "that girl". I don't think I am succeeding.

Tonight I bake!!

If you make them they will come. Or at least they won't got to waste. Horrible very bad day today. I wanted to quit. Quit caring, quit my job, quit life. So I spent MONEY! That always cheers me up. I went on a cupcake/baking supply rampage. I charged thru the grocery store my cart ahead of me to mow down the aisle gawkers. OUT OF MY WAY lest you be mowed down was my battle cry. I randomly threw anything that caught my eye into the cart. I was out of there in less than thirty minutes (a personal best).
Tonight I bake and bake and bake watch Bones and bake some more!
I will be happy. I will make a mess. It will be grand.

broken

i can't seem to shake the feeling that i'm not like other people. the feeling of "different" is starting to make me uncomfortable.
there are times when i think it would be so much easier to shake the truth out of people but instead i am supposed to wheedle it out of them using lies and showing my teeth. playing nice and smiling. boo I wish everyone else became insects and had big can of raid.