Tonight I bake!!

If you make them they will come. Or at least they won't got to waste. Horrible very bad day today. I wanted to quit. Quit caring, quit my job, quit life. So I spent MONEY! That always cheers me up. I went on a cupcake/baking supply rampage. I charged thru the grocery store my cart ahead of me to mow down the aisle gawkers. OUT OF MY WAY lest you be mowed down was my battle cry. I randomly threw anything that caught my eye into the cart. I was out of there in less than thirty minutes (a personal best).
Tonight I bake and bake and bake watch Bones and bake some more!
I will be happy. I will make a mess. It will be grand.

broken

i can't seem to shake the feeling that i'm not like other people. the feeling of "different" is starting to make me uncomfortable.
there are times when i think it would be so much easier to shake the truth out of people but instead i am supposed to wheedle it out of them using lies and showing my teeth. playing nice and smiling. boo I wish everyone else became insects and had big can of raid.

The Little Prince

I don’t have the heart for reviewing this book. I can’t stomach the idea of unraveling its passages. I love this book. I’ve loved it since the first time I came across it in the fifth grade.
I do not seek to understand WHY I love these words. I imagined that I would. I was interested to hear what other people had to say about it but when the time came to read what others gleaned from these words soo dear to me. I cringed.
I can appreciate that other people will find something different than what I find but I can’t bring myself to pick these words apart to defend my view.
Like crushing a pearl to see what makes it shine.
“the loveliest and saddest landscape in the world” that phrase has haunted me. The image is one that I treasure. I plan on having that image tattooed onto my inner wrist in the future. I’ve been carrying that plan around since I first started getting tattoos. I’ve only put it off because I can’t convince myself that my left wrist is ready to carry and expose daily what I feel is a very personal glimpse into what I hold dear.

Hello Blog

NANOWRIMO 08 EPIC FAIL!
So I’ll know better next year. I have a beautiful idea for a short story so if anyone in power is reading this I DEMAND A CONTEST!
Oh to be the powers that be . . . ~le sigh~
I have been sick for the past week. I’m a miserable sick person. I am whiny and needy and contagious. FUN! Blech. I’ve decided to start a fan club. Yes it is for YOU!
I’m making signs that say things like “WE LOVE YOUR BEARD!” and I’m going to be collecting dues. Hopefully I will be a better Fan Club president than the one who shot Selena.

days

there are days when all i want to do is cry. when i just want to crawl into a hole and die. when i want to climb in bed pull the covers over my head and lie
to myself--it will all be fine . . . everything works out in the end . . . change can be your friend.

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note to self

I'm scared.

new stuff

I got a new phone! It is sooo pretty all shiny and red. With nifty little buttons and a fancy trackball. Neat time saving functions that I will never use.

Days Two and Three

Day Two

Not nearly as wonderful as Day One but the law of diminishing utility and all that.
I still feel pretty good. Popping pills is my new thing. For serious! I wonder if the rest of the world feels like this all the time? I could live like this. I could enjoy living like this. Maybe it is the weather and not the magic pills. I have been spending thirty minutes to an hour outside everyday, I think that helps too.


DAY THREE!

So I managed to go for a brisk walk this morning. I only showed up an hour late and ten years out of shape.
Courtesy of TimOi! I started the day with exercise and interesting conversation. Overall a good start to day 3.