Circles

November 7, 2004 = Happiest day of my life.

December 21, 2004 = Second worst day of my life.

November 7, 2007.

I was happy, excited, nervous, terrified. I was filled with a mixture of feverish hope and furious dread. It was a Bi-Polar day. One minute I'm up the next I'm down. It can't be irony or coincidence there has to be a connection. It can't be a random date, it can't be a random number. I can't go through this again. I don't like this ride. The highs are too high, the fall is too far.
the feeling of relief makes me sick. the realization that i would prefer to be low rather than risk a fall from a high makes me cringe.